Petting Party

I’ve been holding off from talking about this too much as I’m trying to keep my blog more porny and less about my actual life but the beautiful Sinnamon Love has provided me with a handy link here.

Next Wednesday I have my first ever laparoscopy. It’s the first time in a long time that I’ve had general anesthetic and to be honest I’m pretty nervous about that, let alone the actual procedure! It’s pretty likely I have endometriosis which can only be diagnosed through this key-hole procedure. So, not only do not know exactly what is wrong with me until I have this, but I also have to have fertility tests and all sorts. I’ve been on so many pain-killers this last year, I swear if you’d shake me, I’d rattle!

Obviously, all this stuff has been preying on my mind, and has in part lead to a lack of blogging and whilst I do need to get this all done, I am so so nervous it’s untrue.

I discovered the gorgeous adult star Sinnamon Love through the magic of Twitter lately, and have been reading her blog with interest. I have to say, I was very very surprised to see her talk so frankly about endo! Firstly, it’s not a subject anyone (bar those who suffer from it) ever want to talk about. Any time I’ve ever mentioned it (or made inappropriate jokes about it) those I’m talking to tend to get all squeamish and be all like “ewww girly troubles”. In my experience, people just don’t talk about what is a fairly common condition so much respect to Sinnamon for being so open.

The other part that fascinates me is how she juggles an adult career with womb-based health issues! Personally, I find my body can look totally different day to day. Fucking about with your hormones* and having 2 week long periods is just not something I think would be conducive to being a porn star! Some days I can’t get out of bed I’m in so much pain, some days I struggle to get dressed because my clothes don’t fit me right because I’m bloated. I’m not doing skinny-girl-bitching here. I’m small and if I’m bloated I look weirdly out of proportion.

How the hell Sinnamon does what she does is mind-boggling to me. And I mean that in a good way. Check this amazing lady out by reading her blog.

***Image taken from Sinnamon Love’s Blog***

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